All Things Joyful with Alexa Balsiger

She leaned in, gave me a hug, and said, “thank you for being so intentional in asking questions and caring so deeply.” I froze and found another piece of healing.

I’ve been curious forever. I wanted to know something, I asked. I heard something, I inquired. I observed something, I watched. I have always loved investigating, finding out more, and figuring out all the things. I’m also incredibly relational and have always been a people person. So getting to know people and asking a million questions was (and is) part of the package of me. You don’t want it? Too bad, ya get what ya get and be happy with it. 😉

A few years ago I was told my questions weren’t helpful. I was accused of being nosey, trying to get information that wasn’t mine. I was accused of having ulterior motives. I was accused of using my questions to gossip. I could list a million reasons why I was told questions weren’t mine to ask and it led me on a journey of not knowing who I was anymore. It was helpful to examine and see where my questions aren’t helpful and to really focus on the intentionality and motive. It’s been helpful to know what kinds of things I can use for God’s glory and which ones I want for my own gratification. At the end of the day, my curiosity isn’t a curse, but using it for the glory of God and building of the Kingdom is my heart.

So when I’m asking questions intentionally because I genuinely care and what to use information to love and care for people better and it’s recognized, it’s another piece of healing in my heart that I didn’t even know was still broken.

Healing is a crazy journey and I’m so grateful for more healed moments than not. I’m thankful that every day there’s less triggers and that on the days when they’re major, forgiveness can come quicker and I can recognize those feelings fast.

There’s a million stories I could tell about this, but it’s amazing how one little sentence can help me see who I am again. Every day I’m a little more like me and I’m grateful. A new friend looked at me today and said, “you’re kind of a party everywhere you go”, and I walked away with the smile I’ve been waiting to have and a restored bounce in my step. Yes, yes, I am.